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Buffalo!

2011-12-27T17:35:00.001-08:00

Hi guys! I'm back!

TUMBLR

2009-12-12T20:38:00.000-08:00

http://www.this-greatlove.tumblr.com/

See you there.

2009-12-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

Mayb i should paint my room like this coming CNY. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH, in pink.

& I can never forget/leave things out which will screw things, OR maybe some good idea for really BEEEZZZZZZZZZY people.

SOOOOOOOOOOO WANNA CHANGE MY ROOM & GO IKEA. ROAR. DADDDY~~~~ :x

Thanks for everything,

2009-12-12T07:26:00.000-08:00

Miss the way how we cling on to each other in the bad times, good times,

Kinda feel distant, drifted from you, not gonna let this happen yea.

See you real SOON.

I love singapore. LOL! (inside joke)

JJ <> JJ, RITCHELL > DANIELLE
GOD > RITCHELL :X

CCHY GIRLS, thanks for the lovely card! :D:D:D:D:D

though 3 months late. HAHAHAHA, Mizz you all!

Tinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

Bangz & Bangz sheep.

Service > Unit meet! :D > Meridian > PlazaSing > OrchardCentral > Home.

I think the roof garden is really really very prettty. I went to daiso AGAIN. I went to get my hair dryer. (like finally) it broke down because kinda got burned inside. Anyhow, hope this one don't get barbequed that easily. My bag weigh like 100kg i think. SO SOOOOOOOO PACK. Oh and i just ruined my phone. LOL! It looks super ugly now :X & Today's unit meet really cool eh even though very long. Cause we get to like, have a rough gauge on what's our spritual giftssssssssssssss. And guess whats mine, top 3 isssssssssssssss.

Discerning Spirts, help/serving, Mercy.

COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLL you mei you ? HAHA, okay, BYEBYE. Really gonna deco my house tmrw with mummy, she's nagging till my ears want to fall off already, saying 'you like buisness woman hor, everyday go out go out go out, ask you stay with me at home blablablablabalblabalbla' Yah, so im gonna stay home.

2009-12-11T05:37:00.000-08:00

Bearz at taka,

Somewhere in town, in a large large christmas treee.

It looks like space when i enter. HAHA, really nice.

2009-12-11T05:20:00.001-08:00

LOL, no idea why she sends me this, but i think she's trying to tell me, ritchell, i look like a bowl!

Back,

2009-12-11T02:58:00.000-08:00

Once letting myself to die, now, letting it all go, walking back on the right track.

actions speaks louder. A reminder to myself.

Whats next,

2009-12-10T04:04:00.000-08:00

Met shrimain to pass her her stuffs,

Unit life group at jj's house earlier on. Then Followed by prayermeet. Superduper refreshed, :)

What can i say then, my God is really a God of mercy, a God who gives never ending amazing grace.

look how hard is it now,

2009-12-09T18:40:00.000-08:00

Guess who is this, LOL! Not me of course. How in the world will ritchell look like this, hahhahaha, no lah, cute right? This is Lim wan yi, and she is back from china! Guess what she bought, NOTHING! LOL! for me lah, nothing. but still have, at least she got xim hor. hahahaha and she has grown fatter T.T saw her on webcam. her face round until think can explode already, lazy to upload her cute face. LOL! She's flooding me with 'oi's on the speaker and millions of invataions

bugging me to play reversi on msn with her already, and lim wanyi's sick! she scare me by saying she have h1n1 cannot go for camp, LOL! okok, byebye. my living room cha si lang alrdy.B

BTW, SHE PAWNED ME 4 TIMES ALREADY. TSK. =.=!

lifegroup later on at sembw :D

God, i've given up

2009-12-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

'life without God, life with God, are total opposites'

deep down, i dont know if it still matters,
but
im seriously serious of letting it go, already
yes, we're tired of saying so much but not doing anything.
& its just me only,

thanks for being there, to hold.

In your arms,

2009-12-08T20:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was super exhausted. Fall on the couch in the night and i almost dozed off. okay, my unit with myself walked from orchard to dhoby gaut just to take pictures! great accomplishment huh! no time to post them up, gotta go outreach at 1. till 5.30pm. WWOWWWWWWWWWOWOOWOW. ahahahah, its 12.14pm and i'm still at home, not bathed not eaten, hmmmmm, think i better go now. HAHA, byebye!

Your hands,

Discomfort,

2009-12-07T18:31:00.000-08:00

Irina's 'kissing pose' LOL!

This one i dont know is what, think she nothing to do only hahahaha.

This is going to wfl :X HAHA,

Alrighttttttttttt, hellooooooooooooo. Hate my throat in the morning but God is still great. yea, yesterday was wfl, then daddy came to bring me home. Had subway with brother. Then he went off to his usher meeting, afterwards i went back to yis myself. tadah, like that. &&&&& Yesterday night, my hair got one kind of smell lor. HAHAHAHA, LOL, Nevermind. Afterwards there'll be unit meeting, i think we'll be touring around the whole singapore, hahahaha, , 2012 here i come. :x This week is sure a busy week, & I NEED TO FINISH UP MY HOMEWORK, T.T!!!!! before camp, and camp is next monday. WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, fast hor, okok, byeeee!

I love irina, i love ellina :x

Xoxo,

2009-12-06T19:41:00.001-08:00

Off to prepare for WFL, :)
Seeyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,

God, i wanna do this together with you,

2009-12-05T21:11:00.000-08:00

I Miss,

Get well soon, cat.

GRACEY! where are you!

I miss i miss,

I miss i miss i miss you all very badly.

Catch up soon (':

SERVICE :D

SHE'S SO ROUND!

Im gonna have a baby cousin eh! WOOHOO,

2months more!

danielle! :D

Bernice, aunty leh!

She's telling them how pain was her feet.
*see meicui reaction* LOL!

Soloist, haha.

Jiawen! :D

Livegroup! :D :

Ishi mura :D

Grandma cook bak kut teh, shiok. Everytime she comes over to stay i have good food to eat. HEHE, They're curerntly watching mr bean now. And im gonna eat lunch alrdy! Bebe Grace Ng haven wake up leh, tsk! Pig. Hhaha, today my whole family is home. So surprised. all never go work. So i shouldnt also :X LOL! ok, tonight, new moon? dont understand nevermind. LOL! hahahaha, ok byebye!

Lord, may your prescence be with her

wherever she goes,that she'll always always be safe,

& lord,

bring her back safely.

in my heart, deep down.

2009-12-05T08:38:00.000-08:00

Service, Unit meet, Shepherding on train, Home :)
My house pack like sardines when i came home. Haha, relatives were over eh.
and,
was really a cold night, got alot of mosquitos bites eh. HAHAHA,
but its really a nice night! :)
Okay, tomor will be a day home! :)

2009-12-04T04:17:00.000-08:00

finally! :)

Was at school in the morning, Spent time with an elephant exploring my marvelous school. Haha. Then went for livegroup. After that to my grandma's house waited for her 3 hours & watching her quarrelling with grandpa because of someee old old reasons. Then i'm home NOW and its so noisy&crowded! Tmrw's service, gotta be home early becoz i have family gathering. Wow. OHYA! i borrowed two books from the library, want to finish reading em' cause i like! HAHA, i seriously miss wanyi & nicole tsk. ): I miss webcamming sessions with wanyi ): & bigwarmhugs from nicole! HURRY COME BACK! BYE!

Day w Sponge.

2009-12-03T04:47:00.000-08:00

Lacey ribbbbbbbbbbbbon And Necklaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

Woooohooo.

Me misssssssssssssss!

NorthC! <3

She is drinking china tea now ):
hurry come back, i miss you!
She dosen't wanna tell me where her
china address is, if not i can mail her things ):
Stupid! but still love her.

Watchy watchy.

Orchard Central.

Choco Fondueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! <3

oh BOMB.

Orchard 313. :D
Madness.

I heart Y-R.SPONGE!

HELLO,

Band, WordforLife on moday & already half way through in knowing how to grow as a mighty christian! Looking forward man! HOHOHO, then went to find mummy at night :)

Thursday! I finally met my sponge out for an outinggggggggggggggggggg. At Orchard 313,
OrchardCentral,CentrePoint.HAHA ok i bought, like countless. Ohmytiannnn, i need to stop stop stop spending money. How many times actually i have said that huh? AH! mummy just gave me money for christmas and im gonnaa really put it into church bulding fund ok! TSK! AM I GONNA FAST FROM SHOPPING!??!?! I SHOULD RIGHT! HOHOHHOOHHOOOO! I ate Fondue at Hagen Dazs with Sponge & bought a watch with her :) , and something REALLY FUNNY HAPPENED. We both we're like chionging our fondue, and in the end stomach pain, brain freezeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I love to spend time with her eh :) Thanks for the day sponge! Jiayou in your walk :) went to find catcatcat aw anqi, with kachingchingchingz with some brothers and went home ;)

okok, im indulge in this song currently, like its really what my heart really wants to express. Mummy asked me to stay home tmrw to decorate the house with her for christmas, hoohoo! I will have a BIGBIG GREEENNYY tree at homeeeeeeeeee and mummy HAVE TO lay my presents under the tree on 25th december.

when i think about the Lord
how He saved me, how He raised me
how He filled me with the Holy Ghost
how He healed me to the uttermost
when i think about the Lord
how he picked me up
turned me around
how He set my feet
on solid ground

it makes me want to shout
hallelujah! thank you, Jesus!
Lord, you're worthy
of all the glory, and all the honor
and all the praise!
Hallelujah! thank you, Jesus!
Lord, you're worthy
of all the glory, and all the honor
and all the praise!

Tmrw, Band at 8.45 repot. GOD, PLEASE DONT LET ME OVERSLEEP, nudge
me on the head, haha. My arms cannot tahan 95 pushups when i have to redo and
redo over it again and again because of some people fooling around.

2009-12-01T04:19:00.001-08:00

A swim with God was good! :) but i feel like vommiting now.

2009-11-30T22:09:00.000-08:00

Was going out of the band room and this thing scared the hell out of me. I thought its gonna swing infront of me and bang me. Scary leh!

better days

2009-11-30T18:28:00.000-08:00

i love you, as always

since we've decided this, let's go for it and promise not to ever ever EVER turn back, that's me.

Last night have been, crazy in the mind.

I was sitting on the sofa since i came home, thinking, for 2 whole hours

Then i went by the pool and sat, thinking thinking thinking. for another hour.

Went to my room, lay on the bed and keep on thinking.

I almost went crazy, haha, so for today,

I just cancel everything and stay home, day with God.

Well, guess i've still made the right decision for myself, cause i only know MY God knows me the

best, inside out more than myself.

In my own confusion, he's the only one who knows what i am thinking and brings me out of this whole confusion letting me be clear of what's really best for me and what should i decide for myself.

yeap, last night my mind seems to be in a batttle or somekind of war, haha.

2009-11-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

Woke up at noon, go to eighteen chefs meet irina, hweeling, lijue, jinan, huifang & danielle to do homework in the end danielle and i each bought 2 bottles of n.polish & painted my nails with her! its super candy right now, and lijue says ' ritchell i want to eat your nails! ' Irina says ' its so hot, ouch ' i still managed to complete my homework, i completed compre! *wide smile*

lollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. I D-I-Y the card above, nice right! *pat shoulders* hahahahaha, then met Ace and went to woodlands around 7, wanted to catch Christmas Carol 3d, in the end, DONT HAVE. LOL! (before that we even cabbed there because we're afraid we'll be late for the show :x )Then we were like, still got what show ah, then caught some japan show called 'HAPPY FLIGHT' LOL! we're like, happy what what what? and gave each other a '?" face , that we don't even know whats the show about at all, we just bought our tickets because its showing at 7.30 pm and its 7.30pm then. Anyhow only, haha. So, we bought our pop and went in. Super funny, the cinema wasnt filled with much people. Well, the show is not that interesting but can trigger your nervous system. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. Okay, i almost froze inside anyway was on superrrrrrr high tide , opps :X Then cab back to yishun. and we both happily enjoyed the night together. HAHAHA, i gave ace a necklace that we both have each now, its a key to a heart. And yeap. Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv :) Soon will be eating sushi with her! Tmrw there's WFL & Band (-.-)

Alot of thoughts,

ran through my mind last night.

2009-11-28T20:53:00.000-08:00

When then is, right?

God speak to me,

Byebyebyebye, im going to meet irina.

2009-11-28T07:21:00.000-08:00

I was the EARLIEST to arrive at yishun mrt today.

POWER NOT! *pat shoulders.

Went sservice today & i just simply love today! :)

Rachel and me caught a elmo at ps today , haha.

Took neoprints :x its been so long since i've took them.

And Rach spent 9 bucks on that stich on the first pic and gave it tooooooooooooooo meeeeeeeee!

I was so reluctant to take at first, but then. Since she love me so much, why not.

HAHA, this elmo is so weird ._. anyway, my room is way too small to squeeze is more stuff,

its really SO SO PACKED! my table is full with messy decos, my dressing table is like, way too much sstuffs! my cubboard, SPPPPEEECCHHLLLEEESSSSSSS~ Ohmanzzzzzzzzzzz, i have alot of things to do and school is resuming in one month time. I haven flipped a page of any of my homework, too much assignments that i need to do, countless book reviews -.-! Haven buy my school books, haven dispose my sec 1 stuff so that wont be so cramped up next year until like a pig sty. I was thinking for the book reviews, cant i use the bible? HAHA, its like inside so many books. Can share gospel same time. HAHA, then, &&&& clean up my unwanted clothes and give away then can store cny clothes :X if not my mum will be nagging, no space to put no need buy ): okay. All these things really need alot of time, like a one day

time, one afternoon time to keep! Because people like me, take forever. LOL! I someone to come over, like irina to help me out. Haha, er, tmrw will be having shepherding, meeting ellina! meeting ace to celebrate her birthday! hohoho! I've customized a tee with ahem and with yuqing!!! One kind, totally size TOOO SMALL i think bernice can wear only. LOL! Need redo, walao waste $ only. Tsk, btw hor, Sponge, do take care! Its my turn to takecare of you now, rest well! :) God will watch over you.

Okay, so what should i say now? Goodnight, xoxo.

I need polaroid films, badly. T.T (buy tmrw) :X

i guess, we both still have something

stopping us in our heart

from hitting that similar perspective

we have in our mind.

2009-11-26T23:03:00.000-08:00

Let go the things that have no point holding on , now.
Maybe it will be a greater point for you , later.
Definitely you will see and experience God working greater in your life.

Actually, Its quite a nice feeling to know that no matter what happens,
there will always be someone behind you, waiting for you,
supporting you, loving you,
thinking of you, without any intention or motive.
But, perhaps its just not the right time for all these things :)

Thanks for all the memoriesssssss! :D

In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

Wherever you will go - The Calling

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone could you make it on your own.

CHORUS:
If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'd go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
who can bring me back to you

CHORUS
If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'd go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

CHORUS
If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'd go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'd go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'd go wherever you will go
I'd go wherever you will go

2009-11-26T06:05:00.001-08:00

Yongqing,Weiting,Danielle
Came over not long ago and delivered taohuey & soyabean drink to me .
They prayed for me too! & sang a song for me. HAHA!
Really thank God for them !
Today was really suffering. Temperature kept increasing till 39 degress in the night.
then went to see the doctor.
I was sweating like i just went for a 2.4 km run, when actually i'm just resting on the sofa the whole day.
I spend the whole day sleeping today. Twist and turn, kept on sweating.
Gave a miss for today's north training class, was actually feeling better around 12pm but mummy didn't allow me to go out.
Was really feeling terrible for the whole day from 7am today. My whole body went numb. My body kept burning eh~ But, God has healed me! I feel much much better now. Even though i'm very 'HOT' now. Haha, thank God for my mother, who went to buy watermelon and longan for me. Despite the fact that my daddy didn't want to fetch her to the supermarket ,she still went an extra mile to buy because i just felt like eating them. Reallly thank her so much! For taking care of me for the whole day, covering me with the blanket, laying her arms around me to support me. Thanks mummy.
Also, thank God for those people who called and prayed for me!
rachel,yuqing,jinjyue,Irina,Wanyi, thanks alot alot alot for being there ! :)

2009-11-26T00:35:00.000-08:00

38.6 degrees.
My head is spinning.
God, heal me.

Amazon

2009-11-25T08:11:00.000-08:00

Beatiful.
Being beautiful not just on the outside, most importantly inside.

Amazon is gonna shine for GOD :)

Band -> North Training Class! :)

Dinner at Mos burger w Unit -> Plaza Sing w unit

-> Plaza Sing w CHUA YONG QING!

-> daddy fetched me home <3

Im super happppppppppy with today! I love the things being taught by joyce in class today. Heehee as well as what Bridget addressed in the meeting with the girls today. Amazon : Be a Woman Of God that will give her best in doing every aspect in her life & Lift up the glory not to self but to God! I had aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa very great night with Chua yongqing, that i didn't realise its 9pm~ She still calls me 'sheep' by mistake & the moment when she said that, it really feels normal. Till like few seconds later i then realised. Haha, well, 7months with her ain't easy, but such moments don't come by easily. Experiencing a change after going through together these 7 months is really very different, i've learnt to be being responsible of my own personal growth :) haha, and i never fail to not buy things when im with Yongqing! hooha. I love her alot.
The bag i bought from CASSIS is really very nice eh! :)))))))))))) hot.

Btw, Amazon is the combine of ABC girls, Not amazon forest hor instead of 'ABC jiak roti ma. HAHA, jiayou hor AMAZON.

Be a woman of God. Live like what we call ourselves C:

2009-11-24T06:08:00.000-08:00

Everybody,every thing dont seem to click nowadays and the smiles that i potray really dosen't seems to be from the heart. Really Moodless. Big sigh, can't you guys just understand ?!?! ARGH!!

Sentosa With alvina today, went far east then home. Super tired. We we're sun tanning and almost dozing off under the hot sun & I did something to my hair ;)

2009-11-23T19:15:00.000-08:00

Uh-Huh Uh-Huh.
Yesterday was crazy anyway,
Was with Nathaniel,Jinjyue > U, Crystal, Wanyi, idling in Plaza.
At first eat subway, full alrdy.
we ate, Mee-siam,Roti prata, Banna with milk prata, LOL.
I remember still got one thing called, Bomb Prata. LOL! More full.
Then Got strawberry shake, dont know what godzilla somemore, then Ice longan, still got Rose syrup! LOL! The uncle help us take order still ask us buy somemore, then we cant be bothered with him, come kajiao only.
Then this uncle damn tico, keep meinu here meinu there. meinu everywhere.
haha , ahlim here (; i help her continueeeeeee (:

Then the uncle keep jioing her . make i want beat the uncle . but the uncle very styleo . (=
then ritchell keep kicking my leg lehh )= now i chao geng then ritchell cover for me . so nice . then she move the chair anyhow , then see my butt and molest me fats . >;(

baoyi continuee .
nothing to continue . band sucks manxz !

ritchell continue .

Nono , ritchell's baby continuee. (=
no la ! ritchell's senior continuee. :D
Nono , everyone no continue . so byebyee (=

go cook shit alrdy . :D

2009-11-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

Was in facebook, looking for pictures to grab of someone. While browsing, i really miss so much moments with the crazy girls. Ah, i really miss you guys man. past NorthA! :)

let's carry on with our lives and keep walking strong with God. Miss you people! so much.

Had membership class today after band. Band was chui~ Anyway, had lunch with Joy,Brenda,Cystal. then went off to Somerset. Was busying editing my script for sharing my testimony, i'm really nervous eh! Haha, ok well, hmm i didn't really screw up the whole thing but just at the end part where, i start trembling in my voice. My voice sounds REALLY FUNNY. Haha, like my pitch abit weird. Hmm overall it went out really well, to me. I really felt God's presence around me at that time. I really feel that he's in me as i was speaking. Because, i just feel confident and brave. Compared if i were to speak in front of the school. Haha, i guess i want to post it up here! You can choose to read or not, your choice! ;)

Hello, I’m Ritchell from Yishun Town Secondary and i'm 13 this year.I've been in Y-Hope for about 7 months since March 7 '09. Looking back, I really have seen quite a lot of changes in my life and I don’t regret coming to know this Great God!
Before coming to know Christ, I was very straightforward and emotional. I couldn't control my feelings or emotions well and could suddenly break down and cry. Once, my primary school form teacher wanted to ask about my situation, but before she even opened her mouth, my tears just came flowing out like a river. I don’t know if i was born with it or probably going through some problem that probably every teenager have to go through in their youth.
I also have a serious anger problem. When things don't go my way, or when my parents don't do what I want, I bring the whole house down. I scream, yell, slam things, swear and cruse. I was really spoilt , and always got what I wanted. I had a very foul mouth as well.
I was also very turned off by counseling. Whenever my parents or relatives try to talk to me, I turn a deaf ear and didn’t really bother about my flaws and anger problems.

Then,I had friends to support me through hard times, but when I needed them, they weren’t always there for me. I appeared happy on the outside, but deep inside I was broken. I could not find the support and comfort I needed. I couldn't turn to my family as I’m not close with them. As I progressed to secondary school, I had a number of good friends, but my life was still the same, nothing really changed inside.
I knew about God since young actually, as my mother was a Christian but she passed on and i didn't really have the trust or confidence in Him that he'll be with me through my life.

I came to accept Christ when one of my friend brought me to Hope, and I really wanna start a new life because I know that God doesn't care how rotten my past was, as long as I’m determined and want to change in my ways, he'll be there to help me out. I wanna thank him for this second chance and this relationship with him, not only a second chance, but never-ending chances that he's gonna give and provide me with in this life.
After accepting Christ, I’ve improved in areas that I've been stubborn and struggling with like, my temper. I handle my emotions by basing them not on my feelings but on God's word, and know that all problems and situations cannot be compared with God and are not bigger than him. When I was challenged to change my ways it was really tough for me and seemed totally impossible at first. But knowing that God will always be there to give me the will and the determination to change that he'll always be behind me and pushing me forward, i decided to just do it.
Without my shepherd's guidance, my leaders advice, my cg mates encouragements and concern and most importantly, without God's love and grace…I wouldn't even be here today. Also the endurance that God gave my loving stepmother to bear all my nonsense and the words that i've said to her; yet till today she's helping me in my walk with God and lovingly corrects and teaches me. The me today is a person who thinks before I act, who knows she needs to be God centered. & knowing not to let the millions of doubts and wearies get me by letting myself to be still and know that Gpd is God. In whichever problems i have, I know that God is here with me, wherever I may be. Only he will stand with me till the end of my days; not the friends that I make, not the family that I have but him. This God, really have shown me how real is he in my life & without him my life is just in ruins and broken pieces. So, i really thank him alot. For everything! Everything that he had provided for me, making known to me this great love & letting me experience his power of life transformation that have transformed my life inside out.

Go go ;) . God's always there for us to lean on.
Like what joyce have shared!, there always be a sunshine/rainbow after a rain/storm. Haha, yea! It'll always be smooth sailing with God after you've tackled a problem. Let's not forget about God in our busy week, continue to seek him & still keep him in mind no matter how busy we buzz through each day. Jiayou hunkz and babez.

2009-11-23T05:22:00.000-08:00

I really hate how much my dad don't bother about things. I really really dont like how much my dad don't give a damn to things that really needs to give a damn about .

I can't stand it when he take the past out to talk, when past is already past, why must he take it out to remind others? futhermore, what have he said brings hurt to others. Why does he keep staying in the last century, when things now and the past is totally different. He don't think before he speak, he don't spare a thought for others, he just simply treat everything not serious enough. Cant he just think more in depth rather than staying on the surface. I really don't feel good when i see my parents quarelling, when seeing my dad being so unreasonable. When my mum don't even deserve to be treated this way. I dont get it why must my dad be so stubborn and so so so so selfish. Why must he always think that his way of thinking is always right and reasonable that everybody should follow and listen when it really really make me feel that he is a person with no warmth with no feelings! Coming home seeing things like this, really turns me down. I wish that my dad could have this least of concern for others. My mum dosen't deserve to be treated this way k, she dosen't deserve all these. I hope things do turn for the better, i wish i could tell her that i really love her alot.

2009-11-21T07:50:00.000-08:00

I dont have pictures to post! Because yea, no phone! haha, daddy says he IS GONNA BUY me a phone. & i just screwed up everything today. Lol! *pats on my shoulders & sigh* well, i dont know what to say, i only hear rumbling of thunderz & i really feel so, insecure and afriad while walking home today. I dont know what sense of feeling it was, but i only wanna hug on, God is here with me. I had a long day, i came home quite late. Jamie's & Anqi's birthday today. Happy Birthday Girls. Had a really good night with ,

Tiffanie,Viven,Irina,Danielle,Viven,Clara & Jamie.

Firstly, we got together at SMU for Joyce's meet. Its really really a very inspiring talk! & i will miss her alot. I really made myself listen to every single thing that she've shared and i guess by wanting to hear what she says so much, i have at least gained something at the end of the day.

Commitment. haha, i guess i do see myself fail alot of times in this aspect about doing things that i shouldnt as it dosen't reflects about my commitment. But i really wanna keep on going, reminding myself . I just hope to sail through this journey i'm on with God with his love and every lasting grace and mercy. That whatever storms and rain will come, my God is here with me to bring me through. After her talk, it really made me inspired eh! Haha, i love my lord&savior ;)

Okay! So, we went to cheong tao huay . liyan brought me to last time. HAHA! Very nice wor. We and talked and played quite alot at there, but hor my beancurd the syrup not sweet one )))))): Jamie still ask me to take tiffanie's eeee so many saliva -.- LOL! Somemore make us so full and we tabao-ed for viven :P then we walked and walked and walked back to Jcube to picnic with vivien. Celebrated for Jamie and then, Wanted to buy paper materials from PS, BUT THEN, when me irina wanted to get in to the shop its alrdy close liao LOL! then we teh~ outside. LOLOLOL. Still cannot go in lor -.- got buisness to make also dont want earn. TSK! then, went to walk around, there's this VERY SCARY LOOKING promoter stop me, grabbed my hand and showed me something magical to my nails then me and irina decided to get it and then went off. Quite a bomb actually but its really nice! My nails go shingggggg~ hahaha. Then went back home with IRINA LOW :D Okay, i'm meeting E and I afterwards, byebye! :) OHOHOH Weiting is backeee!

2009-11-20T17:09:00.001-08:00

What kind of mess did i get myself into?
Gonna be in big trouble this time.
Urgh.

2009-11-20T00:36:00.001-08:00

happy SIXTEEN

Catherine AWWWWWWWWWWWW Anqi~

Time to start doing the things I've kept wanting to do.

Lord, i know no matter how much times i fail you, times when i chuck you aside, being self-centered, being naughty, you'll always there for me to lean on when i need you, your prescence and comfort always fills me inside whenever i'm so so so down and when things just suck so badly that i could really go crazy & cry like a baby but you still gave me another heart and chance to start anew with you. You still manage to cool down my heart and my mind to be peaceful again. Lord, i cant thank you enough. Im really so so sorry for being so dumb and foolish. but i know you still love me! ;) I love you & sorry for that~ ;)

2009-11-18T07:00:00.000-08:00

I watched Pokeeer Kinggg with ChuaYongqing today for shepherding,
we had mos burger, we bought rings! ;) i bought necklace (again -.-) , pink clip.
i think the necklace i bought today is very cool. HAHAHA,
& reached home around ten . I love today! its wo-o~on-ther-full. HAHA,
on the way home, Qing was trying act she has no hand. & an aunty walked infront
of her wide eyed, and check if she has hand ant, and gave that O.O!!!!! face.
Funny can, LOL. Can of course, why not? hahhahahahha. ok la, idk why so high.
Cause currently got three ppl looking at me Of course high la,

Lim wanyi, Megan Tan, Bebe Ng.

They obessed with me ma, thats why ;) i can post the pictures, of LIM WANYI longhair somemore, with her spects and talking on a phone with a homo. Okay? wait until Grace update first la? wanyi can multi task wan leh, webcam with Bebe and video call with me , talk on the phone also. Grace also can multi task, Webcam with me and wanyi and talk on the phone, also twist here and there on the bed. LOL. Lie down, sit down, roll around. weirdos lai de ma, thats why. Only i most cute. Infact, very! ;))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Tmrw will be having Last Unit Cg! my magen is BACK ;) Wahahaha, she came back from cheena after two weeks she'll be going to THAIland. Rmbr to buy things for me hor! Lala, friday will be going out with my bebe. Woohoo, finally ;) didnt went out with her for a LONNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGG TIMEEEE ~~~~~ hohoho, friday got band somemore, tsk. Ohyah, i didnt go band today leh, cause i overslept then lazy go :( really very tried ma. Okay, byebye :D No pictures, tmrw ;)

2009-11-17T07:46:00.000-08:00

Today is...................................

Fun,Family-day,Tired,Funny,Tired,CUTE,

Exhuasted right now.

Really really tired, each second i keep on staring into the screen,

my brain is so tensed up. Argh, i feel that im gonna explode in my brains.

SOON.

Today was, Woodlands,Katong, hmm, Home ;)

first time i went to K with my family, funny.

Oh mummy & i bought our Pjs ;) i like i like.

For tomorrow,

I'll be having my last shepherding :') , and weiting takecare in m'sia.

Miss you ;) you'll owe me a treat when you late reply my msg,

thats what you promised, haha.

ohYeah, i can give a skip for this _____ upcoming

_____________ ;)

Thank God, and i pray no sectionals tomorow?

I need alot of sleep. Im not a person who can go without enough sleep,

maybe.

Just too tired. & i cant seem to figure out why sometimes,

i just cant bring myself forward to tell you in the face some stuff.

I hope i can, but, something's stopping me. Geeeez, Goodnight.

2009-11-16T18:31:00.000-08:00

W
h
a
t

say what you like, i dont care.

PS/- Off to my HOTcakes!♥

2009-11-16T04:31:00.000-08:00

Today service (:

Dont wish to elaborate ? hah . (:

Then went makan makan . bla bla

Then go whatwhat room , for the restructuring thingggy .

Irina cry like some piggggg ~

LOL !

Then like that like that . Then i forgot what happen .

But i only remember i called RITCHELL as RIC-HELL !

haha ! and hell ah hell ! hahah (:

Which makes it to ............... babyhell ! LOL !

Then took mrt to grandma house .

I tell you something ! my ahgong so cuteee !

When he saw me , he say " dog missing alre ): no moreeee . " LOL !

He got old people illness one . ahhaha !

Then everytime see me , then say dog gone . LOL !

After awhile jiu go home le . (:

Nothing much(: byee (:

This paragraph is adapted from http://ahlim-bebelim.blogspot.com/
I'm alright , I'm okay.

Btw ahlim ah, its AMERICAN ROOM FYI! not what what room!

This evening was crapping away with Lim Wanyi. Its super retarded. Let you see one part of the conversasion. Kinda action. But, its not. well, it is, maybe.

we're talking about some stuffs..............

G.Ritchell (: said:
YA
LOL
OK
DONT TALK ABOUT IT
AHAHHAHA

I'm a small kid. (: said:
hahaha ! i like !!!

G. Ritchell (: said:
I DONT LIKE
HAHAHAH

I'm a small kid. (: said:
but i like !

G. Ritchell (: said:
I DONT LIKE
*

I'm a small kid. (: says:
*I LIKE
*

* Weiting(: has been added to the conversation.
*

G. Ritchell (: says:
*my shepherd here
*see how you bully me
*come come
*HAHAHAHA

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**disappear
G. Ritchell (: says:
*:Pppppppppppp

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**hides
G. Ritchell (: says:
**find wanyi
**pull weiting liao.

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**go oversea
G. Ritchell (: says:
**pull weiting along
**take areoplane

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**fly down aeroplane and die

G. Ritchell (: says:
**take parashoot fly down with weiting

Weiting(: says:
*why die?
*yea haha

G. Ritchell (: says:
*she want to action with me
*hahaha

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**in cofin , dead

G. Ritchell (: says:
**dig out the coffin
**opens the coffin
**put weiting inside the cofifn
**close the coffin
**burry the coffin
**runs away
*wahahaha

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**call police

Weiting(: says:
*huh?!

G. Ritchell (: says:
*hahahaha
**eat your phone

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**dig out from mouth

Weiting(: says:
*brb uh.sorry

I'm a small kid. (: says:
**pull weiting back to earth (:
**vomit blood

& blablabla i still talk to her by PM. Like cute only. tsk, & still got ppl show off to me about their cuteness leh i think like act only ma. HANOR, hehe. I win i win :X

OH yayayayayaya!

BH came home today hugging a bigbig box smiling like the happiest guy on earth because he had gotten what he wanted, jealouse okay ): nono i cannot be! hahaha.

and he's like chionging his 360 in the room like crazy i can hear racing sounds, i can hear gun shots, i can hear alot of things. I wonder what if i took the 360 and sell it. I want a satio!Phone. I want a new cam! (pink hor) i want alot alot. But!all these are just, what you call those again, WANTS. Not NEEDS. Oh well, haha. At least i have a cute polaroid ma. No film nia. trying to console myself. AHAHHA.
CANNOT BUYMA cause oos ma. tsk. ok lah, byebye!

2009-11-16T01:36:00.000-08:00

Will miss you. Safe trip! see you in a month time, enojy k. Love you very much.

Imy too. ):
infact, Alot.

2009-11-15T17:15:00.001-08:00

Aches. Tsk.

2009-11-15T06:49:00.000-08:00

WHALE said:
must really smile kay?
:]

G. Ritchell ;> said:
why
;(

*
WHALE says:
*cauz i ask u to?
*or i angry already uhh?
*nono is

G. Ritchell ;> says:
*what happen ):

WHALE says:
*or i angry already uhh!!!!

I love you Rachel Tay :)

Keep her safe in your arms.

2009-11-15T04:51:00.000-08:00

Lord, i pray, i really pray that she'll be able to hold on to your hand tightly & be with you in her heart mind and soul. To go through this with you. Ensure her, that you're here and she'll be fine. Give her the strength, give her the motivation to stand up once again, determination to fight her way out with you in her unconscious state of mind.O Father, please watch over her. I pray for her quick recovery, i pray for her to be well. Lord, please i pray that you'll bring her out of this. Fill her with your great &mighty strength o lord. May things be fine again. Let her be strengthened by you. Speak to her through this period of time. Let her be filled fully by your prescence. Hold her in your hands, keep her safe. I pray all these in Jesus Name, Amen.

2009-11-14T09:03:00.000-08:00

What should i say . Haha. Im stunned. I am totally wiped out in the mind. My ytss babes splited. Into diff caregroups. My dearest have gone pioneering. & Another someone so dear to me as well, had went back to the place where she should belong in , at the first place. I will miss alot alot alot of people. Because, its really. Unexpected,amazed,astound,astonish,surprised, bewildered,shock. whatever you call it , of the outcome. Oh well, all i can say is God's plan? Lets move on. Staying at the same place same age forever is pointless. Geez, i do miss the whole entire winy piny people of North A! Really hope to be together with you guys again. Under our gorgeous bridget,gorgeous bridget as our UL. Haha, times spent with you guys might not be alot. But the not-much-times North A spent together, was always fun and great for me, i did enjoy myself to the max with the people. (like the three musketeers) Because its really so much excitement and adventure to be able to enjoy the day together with them! They make me go mad over their jokes, silly actions. Sweat like crazy, going around in places. hehe. I have quite a couple of memories with the cchy girls. They are the superhypedmax up babes around in the north! Hope our LAST unitcg, would really be as fun and memorable like how it was in the past everytime.
Hope to see you guys realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll soon :)
Misses!

NC;2 :)

Chua yongqing, always in my heart! :)

Last shepherding, Gym, & my heart to heart talk with her

-There's so much memories together and memorable marks

that she've left behind inside of me :)

Why? i didnt meant to be that kind of person i dont even wanna be at the first place, i know its unreasonable but i cant explain or tell you my situation and reason for doing this.
as i did made myself hard and cold infront of you because
its really the last last solution to salvage myself from everything .
That i have to take it , use it . AND DO IT. Do you exactly know how hard i've went through? To make myself do the things that i myself dont even think i can do it. But with God, i did.
I endured.
Can you imagine, you yourself in it? its really tough really really tough.
I can see that its really unfair and totally unreasonable for me be being this way.
Really sorrry for all those.

So much to say,

2009-11-13T04:27:00.000-08:00

I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY!
hahaha, but just let me type what i remember.
*recalling.
Okay, i remember recently out with rachel. For a movie at AmkHub. My girlfriend is an agent. And i made her wait very long. We ate lunch at 18chefs. After the movie we spend a bomb because i wanted to get a toy at zoneX and we caught it, its a white fluffy thingy hahaha. I enjoyed!

& very very long ago, out with alvina to town, SHE STOP ME FROM BUYING EVERYSINGLE THING I SAY 'EH NICE HOR' & SHE KEEPS REMINDING ME NOT TO BUY ANYTHING WHENEVER I ENTER A SHOP! i almost went crazy. Ah, haha. oh yah, we saw 2 gays. And when the two gays walked passed me, after 10 secs * turns around and point at them and face alvina* i was like ' omg, is he gay? ' . HAHHA. and alvina turned around and roll her eyes at me ): with a '-.-' face and walk off. HAHAHAH.

Recently also, Cg at pasir ris park. Its really a time where i had a blast with my cg members! Roller blading,travelling,playing. getting ourselves soaked in our sweaty clothes, smell in our clothes. Its a tiring trip home, but finally after dontknowhowmany years i get to go home with my shepherd! its really been so long to have her accompanying me on the 804 bus home. Really miss her k. :)

Same old thing , I had band on mon,wed,fri. ohohoh! I met up my Ellina as well. I bought her mac, (3 donuts a few donkey years,) We watched Jennifer's body & I freak out TOTALLY. Disgusting! I still love her, though everytime we cant find the right time to go out together :) like everyweek our schedule dont seem to be right or have time for us to go out together haha but i still get to spend time with her even though not very frequent but yea, still love her as much. :) Elephant :)

&&&& i was suppose to go out with 'what a baobei' gracelim last wednesday. But Ritchell's wednesday schedule clashed with other stuffs. Like, sandwiching in Bk. Nice expirience huh , haha. So was unable to go out with her. But next week! HOHOHO!

Like way way way way way way back, met up with jiayi to woodlands. Caught love happens. She has no idea what the whole show was about anyway. HAHA.

TODAY! Ritchell met up with denise tan! And with her, to shop like crazy. REALLY C-R-A-Z-Y. When i tried calculating how much i've spent for the past few weeks, my eyeballs can drop out go rolling on the floor. I spend a bomb. A BOMB. Explode alrdy. Miss her alot! :) luvv you. Enjoyed today. Hehheh.

Oh my tians, oh yah! i re-arranged my cuboard as well. Its really neat and organised. I Should get a photo of it. And you'll say great job chell. Okay? haha. whatever, LOL! anyway, tmrw's service. After service will be announcing the HOT TOPIC that 3/4 of north have been talking about. Hehaho. Okay, if i forgot anything i'll update when i remember . The pictures are jumbled up. so just figure out what it is. Haha. okay, byebye.

Rolls.Rollz.Rollh.

OH AND Hppy belated birthday BERNICE CHAN! I have something for you :) Love you many,

2009-11-08T04:21:00.000-08:00

Compared to the past me,
when i use to face problems , difficulties, temptations,
i would always go before the lord earnestly to seek him and find him.
By the faith and strength in the lord, i can, i succeed.
I do fall. I do encounter never ending failures in this life.
Sometimes i just made things so complicated for myself when actually its much more easier than i thought. I Guess thats how the devil works in me,
This time round, i feel different.
Much more different from the past.
Because, it becomes so meaningless&pointless right now.
I really dont know what has gone into me,
but im sure that no matter how long this is gonna take the lord is still there for me to lean on.
I've gotta but all my last hope of faith in this.
I gotta but down all my trust on him.
Its just another stubling block i need to cross over but this block seems a little to long for me to step over this time. I just need to stretch out a little more. Stretch out to the lord hand, just a little more that he'll bring me over.

2009-11-04T04:24:00.000-08:00

Band > Library > Shepherding > Khatib > Home.

-Im starting to commit myself fully in band rather than slacking my butts off there previously

-Finally had spend quite some time with ChuaYongQing today & i enjoyed aplenty. HAHAHA.

- Ribena visits me today already :/ **(hor bridget?)

- My throat's worsen. Ah, sore. ):

- Caregroup tmrw :D

2009-11-03T08:54:00.000-08:00

I need to place every single thing of you above me.

What a baobei.

2009-11-02T20:21:00.000-08:00

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11:22:29 AM
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LOL

She entertained herself while i was gaming bigfishgames. :X
my baobei so cute one, :)
And below this post, you can
see that doubleCHEEEEEEESE ahlim which is a sicko.
Who tries to seperate me & my baobei lah ._.
Bian tai kwang lai de. So if you see her buying doubleCHEESE at mac
with a peace sign, avoid her, she beats ppl up, like siao. AHAHAHAH.
Ting Yu Ng Grace. doubleBEBE , luv you! (what a weird baobei)

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Cute right. LOL.

& i was webcamming with aunty'BRIDGET

last night , she is sooooooooooo crappy.

until tak boleh tahan. She looks like an old aunty.

& she has ribena! *freeflow.

How i wish i have a

freeflow of ribena dispenser at home :X

OOOOOPS. hahaha. k lah, byebye.

2009-11-02T06:28:00.000-08:00

Your photo shall be the first.
DoubleCHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESE. MUAH! Lim Wan Yi.
haha, k lah. what you want? i post alrdy lah. tsk. irratating. 3mins jiu 3 mins lor.
I like. AHHAHAHAHAHAH. okokokok. I love you very much. Thank you for the laughter you brought me! dont take them away! And i hope i wont quarell with you in popular again? also outside burger, where you smashed me up. tsk, bully sia. K lah, what else? byebye. Luv limy,

Thanks Rachel Tay Zhi Ling for Visiting me just now!

Also the rubber ducky marshmellows and choc waffle. Teehee. Luv you very much.

Gabrielle's down with heavy flu for the whole day. Oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

And im feeling sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo headheavy.

Ohmy. Really sucks to be ill. I stayed at home for the WHOLE DAY! amazing? :) I didnt stayed at home for the whole day from day till night. I didnt step out of my house until when i had to send my pig to the guardhouse. Man, its the house enviroment that's making me like this. I haven been staying at home for months and suddenly staying at home seems so difficult and tough. Hah, well. tmrw i'll b going out with my hunny. &&&& I GOT BACK MY SIM then being message spammed. Im gonna go for a new phone now. & saving up for camp as well . Wow. How shall i organise my $.$? ~.~ oh well. Time to meet my love, goodnight babiyz.

Perfect piece,

2009-11-02T00:16:00.000-08:00

Miss. Miss. Miss.

Missing you,

2009-11-01T06:54:00.000-08:00

I do miss you, who don't ? ; if they we're me.

12 dayz :)

I feel so nauseous right now, ):

sponge came over and left. :)

I lost my phone -.- , so dont bother contacting me for this period of time.

Till approx next week or by this week.

So inconvinient without having a phone.

Oh, I've school tmrw and im still up. Wonderful.

Didnt know so much came tumbling on you,

pressing on you that you couldnt have space to breathe.

I hope you'll regain your strength from the lord again be refreshed & stand up stand up to walk with God again. GNYT Imy.

Night.

2009-10-31T18:45:00.000-07:00

Anderson blablabla. Bridge (?)

East Coast, 31/11,

More pictures actually but just a short update before this blog goes dead.

Too much to say what happened, but life's going great. And i've really gained and learned alot this past few weeks & i really thank God for that. His mercy never fails no matter how many times i talk about unfaithfulness, no matter how much times i've failed him. I really thank him for taking away all the shame and guilt then picking me up going back on the right track and running this race again. Thank you God.

I couldnt tell you i luv you.

2009-10-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

Gabrielle's gonna MIA from today onwards , uh-huh. Bai bai ~

Leave me tags okay, everything is going fine . Hoho .

& Thank you for sending me home today, :)

Gabrielle,

2009-10-18T07:07:00.000-07:00

Voom.

Daddy is so nice to me today. Hee~

Went for water baptism. Mummy came.

After seeing and witnessing others being baptised previously , didnt get the full story of how would it be like even if i knew the content fully, haha, got to experience it today alrdy, so yeah. It was awesome when sharlene prayed & Pastor Shirley said that she keeps thinking about Chilli padi. HAHAHHA. Yep, it was great, though i was abit nervous. Haha.

After the ceremony, mummy wanted dinner so with Meg Mummy and Brother off we went to Cafe Cartel. Haha, we ordered like ..... ohmy me and meg can't even finish our portions. After dinner, went Plaza Sing to Shop with mummy and meg, cotton on enough alrdy. HAHAHAHAH. Mummy must have spend alot huh. AHHAHAHAH. Mum, thank you for today.

Then trained home with the guys, meg & mum!

During dinner,

Talked and mummy really do talk alot. Haha, she shared some stuff to us anyway :) Amazing! Very blessed have her around in my life, despite all those unhappiness ): , conflicts :< and frictions :/ in the past that have happened. Now that through Christ we have been brought us nearer and closer :D To overcome problems in the family together in biblical ways and be the caring and loving pillars of the family that God wants us to be.

God, i thank you for all these. I thank you.

I pray i pray that I'll be ready to live a new life which i will depend on God , my main source of strength and that i will gain strength in the lord to stand up when i fall, to overcome problems and when i'm weak.

Bridget! thanks for your "ON THE ROCK" card.

also big thanks for the cards,mighty girls of NA.2!

ANQI,ACE! :D

Bernard , Brandon ho :D:D:D:D as well. Xiexie. Haha.

I'll discard of myself ,

gone are the days of

~~doubts ,~~

in the past

gone are the days of

~~the sins,~~

in the past

gone are the days of

~~the wrong doings,~~

in the past

gone are the days with

t~~he wrong motives,~~

in the past

Gone are those days with that i commit

~~the long chain of sins,~~

in the past.

Gone are the days in the past, gone are those days.

Ritchell Gabrielle Ho ,

2009-10-17T12:13:00.000-07:00

Rising up new, with a fresh start with Christ.
Dying to the sins, burial of my sinful nature
That i will be rise up through Christ which was being
raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, that
we too may live a new life , freed from sin, no longer slaves to sins
raised with him through my faith in the power of God
And having disarmed the powers and authorities
that Satan made a public spectacle
of them, triumphing over them by the cross.
& with that
God is my strength.
Gabrielle.

Huh.

2009-10-17T11:12:00.000-07:00

>Shepherding.
>Service.
Today's teaching have impacted quite a no. of people i guess. Impacted me too .
Distractions, the devil works at his outmost best.FIRM CONVICTION, shoves all distractions away.
>North's meet.
Games. Woohoo. 1st team to reach(Meg,Lijue,Grace,Bernard,Nat,Brand,Junkai)

In the end no prize at the last round when competting for winner within the team ( Meg,Nat,Lijue ME!) .

Haha. Nevermind. Fun.

>Just Acia w NORTH.

Ate with my team and group,E.We ate like $98.12 ; 11 people .Cheap not? GST $6.++ Know how come i know so much?

Haha, i did accounting and collected the payment from everybody! i remember talking like a retarded while counting the money out loud. "i return your change alrdy not?" "teryaki chicken set who ah?" dotzzz.

Quite fun eh, get to fellowship while eating. But fellowship until got conflict. ._. LOL!

Then talk talk with NA2. HAHA, now hor NA2 girls out of all sudden period time is here. *Laugh out loud.

HAHA, then then.

>Plaza Sing.

With E,Meg,Hwee.

Cotton on. Bought bracelet and headband. 10 bucks.

And then talking on the phone with my parents. Grr, irresponsible.

Went to Istana and find CCHY cg, then went to jcube, then then.

*Ahem.

>Homehome.

They still go,

2009-10-16T03:26:00.000-07:00

People may stay for now, but leave later.

Things may seems pretty good and hit off pretty well ,

but later, maybe everything would turn their back against you,

the world going against you.

Somehow seeing people being distracted and led away by the distractions and decisions made in their walk with God, makes me have this 'aiyo, how come liddat' sian sian feeling. Hmm, i dont know how to put this but, well. People will still come to our lives and leave , will come and leave after a short while , feelings will somehow change and fade, stay very long but later fade off. You'll never know which one is real or fake, until time has proven to you. & when time can prove to you, believe whatever is being laid and shown infront of you, just believe cause God is telling you that maybe its not the right time to blablabla for blablabla . Sometimes you might feel that the circumstances really pushes you to your limits that you just wanna give up and break free of tolerating, controlling and following God's way because you wanna have fun, wanna do what you like, wanna just be free from everything and head for the worldly stuffs even though you know that this world and everything on it is not eternal but temporary and will still be gone and everything still returns to God, we should serve him not idols not going for the world because God is the God of all creations who created heavens and earth. But by knowing this you couldnt even have the slightest bit of strength to reject and turn away from all the temptations,evil-desires that keeps coming to you maybe because the feeling in you is too strong and keeps bugging you like crazy that you cant take it & then break free going your own way, doing what you like, heading for the world but also serving God at the same time. hmm, i've learned one thing during shepherding that, One person cannot serve two masters. Only ONE. And during my past quiet time,

1 Corinthians 10: 21

You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons too; you cannot have a part in both the Lord's table and the table of demons.

Also learn that if

Want to serve God, serve wholeheartedly. Dont be luke warm.

Make your decision between the world or God and stick with your decision and stand firm with it.

& I am working in this too!

We can't possibly serve two at a time. We'll be dead tired for sure. Wake up , YOU , YOU!

If you dont quite seem to understand this, never mind. Haha, you won't get
the full story of what im trying to express unless you know what im linking
to Or maybe im just not good in expressing my words. HAHAHAH, bai :)

For you,

2009-10-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

Crazy, but i like. :D

and i came falling off my sponge.

Megy.

Couple eh.

AhLim.

Sherry. HAHAHA.

Before.

After,

HAHA.

E, gotta takecare.

miss you :)

Lunch with Rach & Ellina tmrw after school. Wednesday was at marina sqaure with my unit to bowl. Funfun. We have a HI-5 list to work on. And yea, exams are over, i hope i'll have more time to settle down and sort out my plans. I wanna be faithful and discipline in this yea, but also have fun because exams are overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~ woohoo.

Holidayyzzz are here and hopefully im not going overseas on Church camp. HOPEFULLY. I bet there's band camp, remedials, courses, blablabla . Hope the timing wont clash against another. Yeap. Today, swimming. Woah, after sun tanning under the afternoon sun with the girls, really feels good warm & funfun! Wanyi's sunblock came in the right time, super shiok. Haha. swim and played then caregroup went back at around 6. And bernice forget her keys! and came back to take. There's school tmrw. Oh well.................

Ohmanzszxs, tmrw's rush~ im always doing things at the last minute. Argh, cant be that lazy.

Pictures speak more than words,

2009-10-15T03:12:00.000-07:00

Too much pictures to post!

North A went to marina square to BOWL~ *chheeers*

Fun ya'know. then 10pm plus to Chua Chua Yongqing's house!

WAHAHAHA, she came out with her so mismatch top and bottom.
With her hair like maggie maggie. Hehehe, slept early yesterday.

Today CG came to swim and its funfun. Now i'm so tired and chui~ oh.

Later post kay. Baibaibaibaibaibaibaibaibaibai.

ho-li-day-z.

2009-10-14T06:15:00.004-07:00

Hello, im at somewhere. Haha, Somewhere~

Heehee~will blog later oh. Baibai.

2009-10-12T08:26:00.000-07:00

& Its only your thinking. YOURS!

You think we will be of what you say meh? No way lor~

Tsk. Different okay, DIFFERENT HOR! HAHAHAHA.

Changing,

2009-10-12T04:56:00.000-07:00

God is a faithful God and also faithful in

giving us the best solution to all problems.

I want to receive more from God. I want more. But what have i been doing since i said i want more? , pray? maybe i should be doing much more than these. Desire. Not to be contented. I want more, i want to know and personally experience the great works of the lord in my life always.

Obedience,Discipline,Be faithful in the things i have to do.

2009-10-09T12:27:00.000-07:00

Its 3.30 am and

i'm not as-leep. Wowy.

Haha.

Got a crazy 'dad'

Service tmrw, EOY ends next week. Not hurray. Still kinda down, when i remember how badly i did for my 4 papers. I really dont wanna face it. I rather get straight to the point on how badly i've done. Damn. ~~So discouraging.~~

Last min,

2009-10-08T22:02:00.000-07:00

Always doing last minute work,

always giving my half, chionging at the lastmin.

If i would to give everything half,

God would return it half back to me.

Im not good at last min work i guess, but absoribing the info, maybe a lil good. Just cant seem to not let myself daydream or let my spirit wonder off to another place during the test. I didnt finish my geog paper, AGAIN. When i like left a 8 mark, 6 mark question blank. And still, writing down the last word i left out and trying to make my handwriting clear when it was alrdy collecting the papers. Stupid. Everything was easy when i could just organise my time a lil. Concentrate a lil. focus a lil. I guess i could have done better. I can alrdy predict what kind of results i would get, what kind of class i would be into, what kind of situation would to be like in the meet the parents session after EOY collection of results slip. I might go even go down to the NT stream, or maybe retain. Dammmmmmit. Look, so what if i had done the questions? it might be wrong, cause its last min, my handwriting is atrocious and i might not be writing with sense linking the question to the ans. I might fail 4 straight in a row, geog,hist,chinese,Sci. 60 marks for 3 structured question in geog, i guess i just scored 30. or maybe lesser.

This is what i get when i dont revise. I just dig my own grave. Damn.

God, I dont have the cheek to ask anymore. I just aint worth.

why didnt i started everything just a lil earlier, sigh.

I needa buck up, up up up.

Irina's House

2009-10-07T20:08:00.000-07:00

Argh, i didnt finished my mother tougue paper, compo, history as well. Dang. Im super frustated and super wanna groan okay! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. So many marks fly fly fly. My hand muscle almost cramp while the minute is gonna tick, stupid ! Sigh, i should have give my best. Dangdangdang, im super down lah! Rah, nevermind! God will still heal me. Yeah! Later caregroup, hohoho. bye! ~

Nice one, faker .

2009-10-06T04:35:00.000-07:00

This week, mugging of my eoy. Woohoo.

And last week, was so much, idk, but i know, i have gained a new exprience even though i didnt like going through it, its still part of God's plan.
Last saturday, service! Learned alot from the teaching! After service, was district study group. Then after that went to Mac to study with Ellina and Irina. Hmm "study?" hahaha. Well well, i still managed to digest some geography, skills and stuff lah. After studying, hahahaha, was taking photos with Eillina and Irina, dang . They have so many -na and -i. tsk, make me keep backspace backspace. nevermind! out of point. hahahah,

after that went back to yis, went to find bro&co at yishun park, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Long story, then home around 11 plus. Slept for 2-3 hours ONLY. Cause i slept at 4am plusplus. then shepherding the next day at starbuckz, woohoo hahaha. and studied whole way through, and dinner with family at XinWang, Shiok you mei you? *smiles

Btw, i really want a new phone!

Today, went to the doc, got my medication and hmm, hope my ear gets better.

& to you two,

When you've gone for the world, haven't you've been told that man will always fail us and the world can never meet our expectations neither can we meet the other's expectation as well. Why let the temptations lead you away from God? Wake up you two.

O.

2009-10-02T10:26:00.001-07:00

Argh, Hen xiang, hen xiang ni ):

I pray,

2009-10-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

Just something before i go off to do my Quiet time,

After realising, she's left God, she have decided to put everything away, throw everything away, throw away that salvation that she have once gained and received in free , and chose to abandoned God, dropped out of the race that she's running together with everybody, i dont feel good, and im filled with question marks. Why this Why that, What happened? I didnt know that, during this period of time, where when there was not a single sound and news from her, or sight of her, so much things have happened . Ah, now i guess i could only pray for her. No matter how much have obstructed her from God blocked her away from God, the evil and bad, i hope she'll find her way out of this & come back awaken , once again to serve this wonderful one with me. I pray I pray.

We're going down down down

2009-10-02T04:44:00.000-07:00

my favourite. Lim Wan Yi.

You may laugh at this.

Hahahahaha! luv you.

Ace :D

yuqing (:

Rachy :)

Hello, someone came over yesterday and left at night.

Finally got to spent some time with you

Haha, thanks, (:

Well well, this week, hmm. I haven been catching good sleep and my brain's really swtching off during the test. Once my eyelid shut, it really cant seem to open again! Argh, fed up. Summary, i screwed the whole thing. I just copy and paste copy and paste. Dang ! , chinese? much worse, i din complete my compo. Then at the last moment chiong chiong, chiong until i think the teacher cant even read what im writing, 2nd paper, day dream day dream, last min, chiong until, copy wrong thing cant even digest the question properly , end up anyhow doodling on my answers. Damn damn damn! Argh, i regret man. Shit. But its too late hmm. AHHHHHHHHHHH! Stupid stupid! Nevermind! I want to do do do maths, ): I cant do maths at home, NEVER, for geo and history, probably. Haha, i really hope i'll digest all my texts and keep myself awake. ARGH. I regret i tell you!! TSK!

I haven eat my dinner and i'm very hungry! And i gotten ear infection. Im gonna save up 800 dollars by end of next month. I hope i will :/ 800 dollars okay, i will i will i will! Im gonna show daddy that I CAN SAVE. HIS DAUGHTER CAN SAVE 800 DOLLARS IN A MONTH. HAHAHAHAHA. I think only lah. Dont pput so much hope on me, and make sure i dont see something i like. Cause im gonna get alot of things after getting saving 800. Wahhahhaa.

Btw, i feel like punching alvina low, stupid. I dont know why i still your friend siol. Kidding. But no matter what happens or becomes of you, hmm, idk lah, i'll still be here for you kay. stupid ass, feel like punching you after you told me *coughs. *******PPUNCH.

Lim wanyi, i post le, happy ma? .................... PIG. hahaha, batman boxers okay. *LAUGH OUT LOUD.

Tmrw service, Zhiyun & Boonhui, see you there oh! lovelove!

pig =.=!

TING YU EN GRACE, NA MEI HO RITCHELL, LOVES YOU ^^

God, thanks for letting me know.

thanks.

Oh ? , How true? Sigh, i miss you. ):

Fast one.

2009-09-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hello hello!
HAHA, Final year is coming and argh! I have to study my heads off! hehe.Jiayou too people.
Tmrw , no school.! wooooooooooooooooooooo~
Tmrw there will be caregroup and after that studying with Val and zoe, at starbucks. Maybe? HAHA,
Life's going great, with great people that God have blessed me with, and problems that God gave me to let me see through things and know that for all of my days, his praise will always be the highest. Only his and Of course, my mum, for the love, endurance , patience and care for me. I cant thank God enough for so much things. So so so SO much things , that today, i've realised and felt so much, more. The greatness of him, really overflows.
I wanna thank God for , Yongqing, Yuqing, Rachel, Bridget, Anqi, mummy! Really, hmm, thankyou. Bottom of my heart, you girls mean more than just somebody, but someone! Bribri~ xie xie ni oh ^^

When i know whats going on behind,

2009-09-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

Didnt know where this came from. haha

This week, i didnt had the time to settle down everything and get my hands and brains moving to study and start revision the whole LOT of revision for my EOY, well i know i gotta start, i've already started lah. Haha. This whole week was the stand down of CCA and it really feels good. I've finally started things for ______ with ______. Sorting out the things i have to get done with, even though there's still so much uncompleted. My life's no more sian. My life's no more boring, exceptional when im in class. When there's things always flowing in for me to do each and every new day, look after every day, observe everyday, apply everyday, reminders everyday

Then, when so much have to be done, time just seems to be so short, 24 hours seems not to be enough, i got my dark eye circles, DARKER, i forgotten my dinner, i tend to get so

agitated and so worked up because of lil'things. You know that PEKCEK attitude. Its coming back , again. Haha, i need to simmer down! And people who have been bearing with me, thankyou, loveyou!

I remember accompanying alvina to the polyclinic, caregroup, studying at eighteen chefs, playing wobbly jelly with yuqing, annabelle got me a pink locker! super cute. Thanks! , Zelia's card, Huifang's hello panda, Using my rachpig's mp3 till no battery, Yuqing and anqi waved like crazy girls outside my bus while the whole bus was looking at them.

Haha. Morning call alvina and meg, waking 7.30am tmrw. Ohman. I hope i can. And i haven got my dinner. Its 11.31pm and im hungry. oh :/

You're totally out of your mind girl!

or not, sicko. LOL

Miss you so,

2009-09-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

Ah im so lazy to transf the photos to my blog nah! But if i dont udate them when will i get the chance to! Mummy's taking my modem away! She's always doing it, ya for my own good. Laughhhz.

Together qing irina and me, turned the whole bugis around walking the street COUNTLESS TIMES, and we cant even freaking find clothes to buy! This is the very very very very FIRST TIME going to bugis, without spending any money for like half an hour? or perhaps so different from the time i went to shop there. I would always find myself digging for money after half an hour, now!??! we walk till our heads spin, stomach growling, legs aching, nauseous. WA. Crazy manzxzxz. Anyway, quite fruitful after that when i spent a bomb on something at Mphosis. $.$ flyfly~ hahaha.

Welllwellllllllllllllllll, after walking for HOURS, went for dinner. Dinner was..... shiok lah! While peeling off the price tag from the stuffs, was talking talking talking then, everything shut off, NOT THE PLACE, but my eyes. Haha, i didnt faint lah. Someone was covering them.

Someone, covering both me and irina's eyes. We both was struggling like some mad women, and i bet people was looking at us. HAHAHA! I didnt struggle much, irina low did. She struggled .... like .......... she thought someone was gonna kidnap her or something. Siao. HAHAHAHAHHHHA.

Then then the hands very cold wan, the hands like bamboo as well. Then feel someone's head, very small one, hair tied up, bangle at her arm, hmmmmmmmmmmmm bangle at upper arm. Only grace ng yu ting will wear high up there. Bingo neh~

Hahaha, then then pulled away her hands saw two cakes leh! hahahaha, yongqing was so ganchiong to light up the candle , but we screwed the whole thing by struggling . HAHAHAHA they didnt get stronger ones to cover our eyes. HAHAHAH. The people who were beside us helped us to lit up the candles . Hee~ Then they sang song, Joy Grace Qing, affirmed us ^^ weehooo. Cards from Qing & Viven. Awh thanks CHI CAO! Will deliver a card to you as soon. And yongqing! Super luv luv it. Then took Mrt and home,

though today, wasnt a day that i bought alot of stuffs or wasnt a day that i have bought something i liked, it still didnt turned me down or made me disheartened because at the end of today it still made me happy not by what i've bought today but by spending my day together with them. Ah! Big thanks to grace and joy to wait at the mrt station for half an hour sitting like gun-dus! Thank God for you guys man. And your affirmation! *grinz*! *grinz*

Jealousy ..... kills.
You ruin me unknowingly, thinking its still 0-kay.

Because its Us against the world,

2009-09-20T20:13:00.001-07:00

Back with plenty. Bye!

; PigR, i'll go out with you another time,

sorry yea! You know you know i love you.

*gigggglez*

xoxo,

Chelll. Qing's Beike.

I love you , and thats all i really know.

2009-09-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

I hope my $100 wont fly away. Haha, tmrw will be going bugis with Yongqing and Irina low and be at town for the whole day. Woah haha, just now went to burger for a tiny winy short while for a mc chicken dinner outside bk with ace and yuqing & sent yuqing home today. Suppose to have dinner with parents but they went to eat themselves! >:B nevermind! haha. I miss my pig rach anyway.

~~AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN!~~
What im doing is the right thing, what am i sad for?
Its the right thing and what i should do, is please God .
These which are similar that happened before which
have seem to happen between us, mix us up, stir us up, break us up.
Then when we somehow get back on track spending time together, laughing and playing,
will we be broken apart ... again? or will you understand me this time or everytime. and to put aside all your terms of understanding of me doing it, for me and you ought to do and know what is right. You know that we can do this together, but you choose not to. So what now?

P.s I still love you , very much.

Miss you more than ever,

2009-09-20T03:16:00.000-07:00

Luv ^^

Stayed at home till evening today (such great accomplishment) and going out! ^^ , Yongqing came over just now searced all over the web for wallets . Her ones are like, burberry,gucci,coach,guess, blablabla. HAHA, and she found one, @ $200. Quite nice. But the price not ......... HEE, I've on the aircon for the whole day and im freezing in the room now. BRRR~ going out already lah!

Bye-bye.

Then, it slowly fadez away.

Candlez

2009-09-19T09:23:00.000-07:00

Ace khoo.

Choon Yuqing.

Lim Shi hui!

Playing with candlez at her house,

Oh happy belated birthday Girl, So sorry to reached so much late at your house today! And troubling your mum to pick me up at a super isolated place with trees surrounding me and i am all by MYSELF . hehe, though i might be the last person to reach i'm also the last you had been with today! Luv you~
Today had service, service was awesome, learned about :

God's work belongs to everyone.

God's work beigns where we are.

Yea! i belive that every single person in God's kingdom can play part and has a role! So there shouldnt be times when we have been keep leading the same caregroup roles over and over again we start to get bored of it and just plan it anyhow and not giving our best. We should make FULL use of ourselves to serve God & his kingdom! & we should always start God's work wherever we are, we dont have to run to another side of the world to serve God, but just where we are. And start off with people whom we know that dont know God and cant see God, by letting them see God through us. Family,friends and everyone. I cant just keep talking talking talking and cant just keep ' I have to do this and that , change this and that , overcome this and that ' when i'm always letting myself forgot what i have said. I have to stop talking, start walking. & RHMN and BHCJ is gonna grow together in our household , amen!
YEP! Bridget prayed for me after service, thanks banana.
no matter what happened i just wanna care about now and what i should do now, luv her luv her luv her, God to be there for her, and ME! to do things for her! Imma stay at home tmrw, unless i have to shepherd my sheep. To Zhaogor my mother. HAHAHAHA! Its been so long since I have never stayed home for a whole day neh, but but but monday, i will meet CHUA YONG QING AND IRINA LOW JI JI ! Can shop shop shop dao shuang shuang. And i finalllyyy~ boughtttt a pinky walllet! *SMILES* veli happy happy hor.

now its 2am. AGAIN. I want to have enough sleep tonight, and hope tmrw will be better for us We aint talking much, we aint spending time together much, a dinner would help tmrw. Seeing other people spending time together as a F. I cant help but to feel that bit of 'why cant we be like them' i still belive we'll be able to return to the times when we would always squueze out a little bit of time to spent time together. Because that feeling of intimacy wasnt there anymore....

I shouldnt let my feelings rule me. SHOULD . NOT . (:

So much , so much to say,
But all i can is to swallow it back, controlling.
Sigh, i miss you.... argh.

2009-09-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

& Happy birthday Ellina~!

Feelings dont rule me,

2009-09-18T08:17:00.000-07:00

He is there,

he is always here .

My feelings run like wild every now and then.

Which i need to stop letting them rule over me.

& belive that God is always here for it is said.

I have to trust in the lord. He is here.

Town with Alvina Low Yi Jun yesterday! Y'know heart ache. $$$$$ *ouch* Fun one though, hee. Pictures some other time. Service tmrw , also might be going down to shihui's house to celebrate her birthday!

Whats with this week? hmm, band took up so much of my time, tues was caregroup. Thurs was at town, mon wed fri, band till 6pm. Woah. Much ... fun ? hahaha. well ,I've made Jinjyue's breakfast for her :B and she said its very nice. haha, i hope this sunday would be happy happy day ^^ with chua chua chua chua yongqing!

CCA stand down already, time to get ready for examinations . Hoho.

Should just meet God again and get some sleepy huh?

& i have to remind myself not to let my feelings run over me.

Cause it feels like shit when they took control of me. ~~Really shit.~~

Vina,Val,Zoe!

2009-09-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

Luvluv. Thurs you pour everything out to me kay, at least i still know i still stand in your heart eh! hahaha, Ah love you alvina low low low. No matter how much things get worse of you, know that im here kay! If you're gonna do stupid things again, like ahem. I'M GONNA KILL YOU LOR. This time its first, next time, mark my words really. REALLY HOR, NO JOKE HOR! i might hmm, idk hit you with my shoe or stuff my shoe inside your mouth. HAHAHA, okay lah, you love me alot right, thrusday you buy thing for me hor, dont care. hahahahahahaha. One thing i notice since the start of this year, even if i were to scold you you wont get dulan one leh! hahahaha, because the way you do things really... idk, hahahaha, siao,crazy,silly,stupid. remember hor! Ritchell luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv you girls hor!
Same goes to Val,Zoe, muah muah~ you girls still stand somewhere in my tiny winy heart.

Why cant you see.

2009-09-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

CLAP CLAP TO RITCHELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL! woohoo although there are sweets packs on the table its just to keep me awake or something to chew on lah, put there for purpose one kay, not lazy to bring down to the fridge de hor hor hor ~ now i have 2/4 of the table to study! hohoho. Neat hor? *pat pat on my shoulder. before this is very cham k, hahahaha!

Today had caregroup, hahahaha i lead the games , and NA2 people please say its veli veli veli de fun~ although confirmation wasnt very good. Hehe~ This time round we've got prizers for the LOSER (GRACE NG YU TING , XIANGXIANG PRINCESS, PIG, BEBE,) & WINNER (DANIEL LEE,DANIELLE,HWEEEHWEEE) haha,

right after caregroup, had teaching at some block around 6 plus plus because Bridget Low Low Low Qi xin, was late cause she caught a movie with her very old friend haha. Then learned bout 7 Principles - Relationship with GOD, its quite a basic sermon but still as important huh . and i shouldnt be based on my feelings or circumstances but on the truth. Yeap, feelings can pull my mood high and low, feelings can also pull me away from God if i keep depending on my feelings on how i feel but not on God. Then i slowly will fly fly fly the flew . Heh, went burger, And PIG'RACHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH gave me small little pink pig with wings, which idk what is she trying to tell me~ hahahahaha, thanks ah pig .Then homey home by dad.

2009-09-15T00:07:00.000-07:00

Finally saw my beautiful house in the afternoon sun,
at home at 2.30pm amazing!??!?!/ my mum was shocked anyway,
but im going out again! for caregroup! :DDDDD
I think i just misplaced my .................................................. $.$
dead/ ): its like ........................... you know. Heartache.

2009-09-14T07:19:00.000-07:00

2009-09-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

STILL,

Thank God for the people who drop by a message . Dedicated on their blog,
& also Bangz and jiahui, passing me prezzies in the morning. ah loved! Yuqing,Ace,NA2! :D
Irina low ji ji as well, though she told me good things are meant to wait. well, thank you for the thought becuase yaya, its the thought and the heart that counts! Looking forward to next sunday again to see whats up. ^^ Its 12:43 am, Just passed mine and now Zhishen's birthday. Happy birthday :) ! Hmm, 3 days, counting down to people birthday and finally end of the week, another new week new term to strive again for my FYE. Ah, jiayou me jiayou people.!

Its indeed abit scary

to see how fast it changes.

Today?......

2009-09-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

What should i say bout today? Hmm. *wonders*

Another year.

2009-09-12T08:19:00.000-07:00

Ritchell is still so young. hahahaha! Am 13 already! Hoho, whats up for tmrw?
Oh! Happy birthday to Cyril & Xueyong as well!
Thanks for the wishes that came flowing in, through msn and sms, & also a dinner date with Ace Khoo tmrw! Also the post on Yun's blog. ohoh!Thanks also for the mini celebration today. The small cute cake, and pink cards being binded up with a ribbon. Jinjyue, which made me listen to some cute alien singing happy birthday! haha .
How oh how tmrw, hmm let me see. I've got a project to rush tmrw early in the morning , Shepherd my sheep then meeting with coreteam at 1 till round 3,4 . Off to dinner with Ace Khoooooo. Then somewhere somewhere *hee*

Today i will get all my time consuming homework ,teaching,S.O.A.P done and tadah to my beauty sleep.
Shall this year be simple. hmm, really miss last year. But its already gone, shall move on! Those memories are really much memorable if i were to think of it. Haha,

Wanna thank God for this wonderful 13 years i've been through with you. When having you walking with me, through the hardest of times, through the happiness of times, it gives me alot of joy comfort & peace where it cant be more satisfying than the world. Serving you still have been a joy, even though before there would be evil thoughts filling in, and hard times where there are things that i needed to sacrifice and had to let go. I still did what is needed to be done for i know God will be pleased and also definitely can give me better things than what the wordly people can. Yeah!, for this birthday, i dont know. Gadgets? Clothing's? Bags? Accessories? Money? I dont feel the desire for any of these,
but only one thing. My Sheep. ):

Sheepy ,where are you?

How are you?

I miss you, badly.

Pictures.

2009-09-11T07:50:00.000-07:00

The uncles! hoho! joke, brothers! haha.

One holding gun middle holding plastic side holding pail.

North A's principal. Bridget! a.k.a bananaface!

In some air conditioned room waiting to go off!

LOL!

Luvluv.

sisters!

XIAOOOOOO BAI~

Ouchy ):

SUPER BIG GUN. HAHAH!

Hoooha.

2009-09-11T05:57:00.001-07:00

Wello.
HAHA, im so lazy to update pictures lah, but afterwards yep. Unit caregroup yesterday at bridget's place. Was amazing.

The games was fun even though everyone was drenched by some superbig watergun. That Nigel had to stop by at the security at the MRT when he want to took it home and because the guard find it suspicious. HAHAHA! Played this another version of L4D game. Everyone was all out of their boundaries shooting people with waterguns and saving their own lives, snatching other's life , running around the park . Was so exhausted after that cause really burned much of my energy haha. But still! there's never ending of fun being the unit!

Then proceed by Joy and Glenn for testimony. (Dear God, Dear Satan) . Thanks Giving and challenges. Very cool. Holy Comm by Nicholas and Kejing. ( the things/people that we have hated and brought hurt to is also doing it against Jesus. ) Kinda made me stoned for awhile when i saw how they drew Jesus. One like some Warrior in the King dynasty game, also Jesus with thick eyebrows which were pointing upwards. haha, also jesus with a big nose, and kinda look like one of the guy the family guy show. hahahaha, thats not the point anyway, hehe. Still despite the picture they've drawn, still pictured God inside and seen how much hurt i've brought to him. (:

After caregroup, went down t bridget house, played bball with the brothers with meg,shirl and danielle , When i dont even know how to play ! funny. Then accompanied acey,danielle, anqi, xue li li and qing to the pool . Aimed by the water gun from one end of the pool to another end. Imagine how super is the gun. HEHE, taopok xue li li on the chair . LOL! PLayed till 9pm plus changed and went ate chicken rice at S11 and bused home with acey .

Poof, super tired. Next day woke up for Band at 8! -.-. Amazing ? hehehehe! i didnt get to sleep the whole night.... cant help to keep those worries out of my mind. hmmm...
Service tmrw, harvestest meet. (: Then shall wait up to 12am? hmm or should i just plung myself into bed? hehehe.

Unit Caregroup!

2009-09-10T08:28:00.000-07:00

"Why worry?"

For they aren't worth my time to worry about.

I shall place them all on God,

let him take control.

& he'll watch over me,

for he knows my heart condition.

Shall be strong.

2009-09-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

Metamorphosis! was really a blast.

Was almost breaking apart at the end of the day it was still good when i gave my all to praise&worship God to the max , but while walking home i will always still never fail to feel God right here, comfort and prescence while listening to some worship songs to walk through the ulu road. haha!

Meg and Shirl was down today. Even though they din managed to recieve the holy spirit baptism its still okay! but girls! do continue to have that really overflow faith for God, might be hard for now but jiayou hmm! luvluv!

Brother's back from M'sia. Tmrw need to wake up SO EARLY IN THE MORNING TO GET TO SCHOOL just for that ONE HOUR OF DRAMA CLASS. had to really save time to get done with my project! Then had to rush down for Unit caregroup ^^ ! Still Dont wanna left it over for my weekends :X For something's more special than chionging my homoework -.- *giggles* Aye, stopping here. Argh, i want to be energetic tmrw. Dont wanna stone & be brain dead!

Hmm,

Double life?

No.

2009-09-08T18:12:00.001-07:00

Waking up early in the morning, hmmm. Took my bath and then i glared myself in the bathroom mirror, that large piece of glass hanging up the wall haha. Then i took a close look. I felt strange. Didnt really recognise my face. haha! Then i finally knew that, everday , i would just wake up , prepare and out i go. I didnt really had time to look through my face, but, then realise my eyes have been transforming. Into panda eyes, pooooooof~ time to get some stuffs already. haha!
P/s: haven even dry my hair , gonna be late for metamorphosis. Ahhhhhhhhh~

2009-09-08T16:57:00.000-07:00

Metamorphosis!

For you, i wanna do this for you

2009-09-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

Done, not gonna do it anymore, not gonna repeat anymore, for i know this world dont love me the way God can. Much greater , much more .

Though its right but its at a wrong time. I shant be lead away by it again, even its gonna be a long and struggling tide , I can :) with you.

Even though those times were random,

i still cant help but to feel that bit of happiness.

For me to end everything off you know how much it takes, but

I still did it for that one & mighty God above,

directing all to him.

2009-09-07T19:07:00.000-07:00

Surely the arm of the LORD is not too short to save,
Nor his ear too dull to hear.

But your iniquities have separated

you from your God;

your sins have hidden his face from you,

so that he will not hear.

Isaiah 59:1-2

The reason leading back to you,

2009-09-07T09:57:00.000-07:00

No matter what, still, dont go;dont leave,

Together with me ya?

Not for the world anymore R,

not for the pleasures for yourself anymore,

its time to turn back to God.

Letting go although it might be hard,

because i know you'll not gonna stand with me till the end,

Letting go for i know God will fill me in more .

Lets do this together .

No more tears,

2009-09-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

Lost signs of direction,
Lost signs of heading,

Where am i exactly going?

Who is exactly leading me?

I wanna turn back to you once again, God.

I dont wanna turn back to the vulnerable world , again..

Refresh me .

My first love,

Please.

2009-09-04T17:48:00.000-07:00

I hope it will work out well today God.

I really hope things will go well today,

I want to have faith that im able to bring him down today.

Smiles

2009-09-04T10:04:00.001-07:00

Hmm, this week might be a great one? haha, not because its that week of last semester. I have recieved quite number of things from God & God never fails to bless me through this week as well. HAHAHA! Have been down to Meg house recently. Woohoo, enjoy her sharing life with me! :) & it always made me recall the times when me and her used to have fights conflicts! Which made me laugh out loud like some crazy woman! haha and sitting at the void deck listening to an awesome one playing guitar!
Hmm next week, of CHUI holidays.

Monday , 9am - 4pm BAND (-.-!)
Clarke Quay for dinner with class at 7pm!

Tuesday
FREE FREE! DATE ME! *******

Wednesday
Band exachange with Tampines sec. 9am-4pm.
So not looking forward. Haha.

Thursday
8am - Drama class.
Science Project. Alvina,Val,Zoe,Ma.
Movie & dinner with parents ^^ , been too long.

Friday
BAND -.-!!!! 9am - 4pm!

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Then i wonder how shall i spent my sunday, hmm (HAHAHAHA)

Look! three consecutive days of band for like 7 hours! Hmm, should i say damn or just be happy and live along. haha. . Pulling a long face throughout Band isnt that bad afterall, but its bad when i dont have the energy to focus, just like today, it really ruined my mood upside down lor, because i really feel like x1000000000000 sleepy. Hahaha, im angry when im sleepy. Nah, its okay. haha! Talk and talked to God . Tmrw's sat, another week passed by! Next week shall be something more different something more special. haha, service tmrwwww. OHOHOH! Alvina low yi jun! thanks for that post at your onsugar, just want you to know , i'll be right here!

Good night,

feeling different .

Shhh,

2009-09-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

Last 3 days to endure all the stuffs in school!
2 more days of band! 3 more days of school till 6!
then to the one week of holidays!
Also! FYE!
Jiayou to those who are taking Nlevels. Olevels, Prelims.
Especially, Ace Anqi Sherry! That 3 clever noobs.
Score well then after your N then you guys can stay over at my house as long and as crazy as you want! tao pok for 24 hour, roll on the bed, roll OFF the bed, creating havoc, laugh until stomach cramp, play dress up games hahaha Jiayou kay!
Also! OWL ! :D
YOU! , just study for the sake of God! who loves studying ?! , especially maths! haha, jiayoujiayou! Just do it then can get over it ! Then you can dye your hair into yi tiao yi tiao gold colour and i shall pluck them out one by one! You can do it! Jiayouuuu .
Chua yongqing , swimmingsuit/yongyong/qing/shepherd
Jiayou hor you! hahaha, your octopus exam, see you study until hair all stand up become kiu mo already need go do rebonding. Then pen all no ink, study until textbook the paper like going to tear out liao, foolscape also filling and stacking up your bag. (all i create one) LOL!
Tsk, actually hor , see you study until like that i also heart abit, not comfortable leh, eye want to pok out alrdy, always running out of energy, also temporary depression . hahahahah! joking. but i belive God will still help and you give you the strength to do things for him for yourself as well. Must takegood care of yourself leh, i not 24-hour there for you de . Want to keep watch of you also difficult leh, still hor, remeber what we are going through together? Let's not change our attentions to other things but only to God alone! Hope you wont breakdown hope you wont fall sick, hope you wont give up , stand strong! You're not fighting this alone , but with God, with Great 6, with NA2. All the best qing.

130996

2009-08-31T20:26:00.000-07:00

September is here! *Grins*

Happy birthday to Jeremiah ANG ANG ANG! September 1 !
Happy Teacher's Day!
and september babies!
hahahaha, irina low ji ji would be looking VERY forward.
*grins x1000000*
hahaha, caregroup later on!

Today is the day! you have made,

i will rejoice and be glad in it,

i wont worry about tomorow ,

im trusting in what you say

today is the day

oh oh oh oh oh ohhh.

SNAPS

2009-08-31T03:33:00.001-07:00

Liyan, RACHY! , Clara!

HHAAHHA , somewhere in faceboook.

AAWW ANQI!

Alvina!

Sexy 5.

Denise!

MEGGGGGG

School ended early. Teachers day performace was nice though. hahaha. Went back to jiemin with sabrina and meg and bao bao. Shouldnt have went there early, because the sun was so hot! Went to Chongpang Mac, then went back to Jiemin, went in around 1 plus, came out around 2. Was quite a fruitful day, manage to catch up alot with alot of people, from diff batches, huge changes . Some are good changes some are bad. Hmm, its okay. hahaha! Principal was still was heart-warming as ever. Then off to northpoint , with Meg,denise,Joanne & jiahui. Burger king, then went home,( feel like vomitting for the whole entire day!) then came out again for 6h gathering round 8pm . The barbecue was shiok with the class . Mdm yeo came down leh, haha! Left around 10 plus.

Will be going to clarke quay to have dinner with her at CLINIC. With some random people. Which always never fail to make me laugh like crazy always.

During the sept holidays . Hmm cant wait! hahaha.

Tmrw will be having caregroup at my housy. hahahaha, i still haven book the function room! how nice of me hor! will do that early in the morning tmrw! hahaha.

Really thank God for making my today so happening (:

All the things

Buffalo!

TUMBLR

Thanks for everything,

Back,

Whats next,

look how hard is it now,

God, i've given up

In your arms,

Discomfort,

God, i wanna do this together with you,

in my heart, deep down.

Day w Sponge.

better days

Amazon

Keep her safe in your arms.

So much to say,

What a baobei.

Perfect piece,

Missing you,

I couldnt tell you i luv you.

Gabrielle,

Huh.

They still go,

For you,

Pictures speak more than words,

Changing,

Last min,

Irina's House

Nice one, faker .

O.

I pray,

We're going down down down

Fast one.

When i know whats going on behind,

Miss you so,

Because its Us against the world,

I love you , and thats all i really know.

Miss you more than ever,

Candlez

Feelings dont rule me,

Vina,Val,Zoe!

Why cant you see.

Today?......

Another year.

Pictures.

Hoooha.

Unit Caregroup!

Shall be strong.

For you, i wanna do this for you

The reason leading back to you,

No more tears,

Please.

Smiles

Shhh,

130996

*SNAPS*

SNAPS